i dont usually rant or usually just reblog stuff but i have to tell this tale in terms of saying something. mainly for those who may know someone who just either may have found out about there gender or sexuality not to long ago. yes, tumblr is usually full of complaints but this is more like a true story that unfolded.
i found out i wasnt in the binary gender wise ever since around december. trying to let my friends know pronouns or explain what it is since most of the time apparently its unicorn status of being bigender.one of my best friends who i even considered my morail, well due to short term memory kinda had to explain it a couple times. which is fine.
this is where the point comes in
for a point of two times she came up to me and said” can you quit with the whole bigender/genderfluid stuff?” which both times instead of letting it in like the nice person i usually am snapped at her. saying its a part of me and you cant really change me a two spirit in one body kinda thing. thinking that these moments i craxk would mean something. it was proven in vain when last night she sent me a voicemail saying this-
“ i know you have memory problems and all but me saying quit with the gender stuff had to be done. the how bigender thing is just plain gross.”
during this time listening to this voicemail my sister, who actually accepted my gender told me right before i can finish the voicemail first told me to delete and stop the voice mail. having nothing but pure rage seeping through her usual understandinfg nature. pretty much taking my phone and leaving my sappose best friend a long voice mail back saying how dare you say that! thats like saying you vant be your true self just for your own comfort. if your that ignorant not to accept for someone for who they are you will not get far in this life. you need to reeducate and take this in for the next person in line. (insert my real name here) is already going through hell and doesnt need this from someone as arrogent and selfish s yourself. hanging up the phone telling me that she apoligized for not asking me if me and kacie were still friends or not.
whats the point to this story/rant?
for those who maybe just relized themselves more in terms of either gender, sexuality, race, disability, and the many more things i forgot to list you need to research it. if you really care for someone either platonic or romantic please take a couple minutes to open up to learn from them, not just accept the label and calling it gross after words. it feels horrible when someone says to you that you thought were close that your true self, is disgusting. it is not the person to keep in your life and if the one reading it has done this- shame on you. telling one that is like saying “ hey, go jump off a bridge” kinda feel. sure, it might be uncomfortable at first.in thime though once hitting the books if you really care for them- it wouldnt phase you. in this case she did and i dont have any platonic feelings for this friend anymore. more or less felt like she used me and called me disgusting. what a way to mess up being friends with someone who listens to every problem and helps you become more confident. by learning this story i can only hope this doesnt happen to anyone else. let along someone you thought was you best friend soul mate. if something similar lie this has happen to you, feel free to talk to me and dont let these people define you. you are who you are. nothing else matters but loving yourself in this. even if its strange to others who really cares is yourself.
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I'm an artistic derp women and not afraid to show it!. i have a burning passion for anything humorous, nature, comics/fandoms, the arts and writing. i try to do my best to help others as well as trying to be a shoulder to a friend who needs it. i am autistic so i might be obvious sometimes but that doesnt stop me for the casual goals of letting these passions turn into a career and settle down with a family someday. its a pleasure to meet you and hope you stick around
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