the moment where i listen to nightvale

hey guys!,
as you guys know im cosplaying as cecil and to stay in charecter i was listening to the podcast while studying for an upcoming exam... now ive seen fanart of the oak door and on episode 46 when carlos was talkiing about going through the oak door i suddenly without restraint i was yelling and slightly crying "no carlos! no! dont do it! you'll be trapped in there ! i know you like science and trying to do it for science but please no no dont! cecil you dont relize this but please make him stop! plno carlos you dont know what your getting into! " kinda phase. i dotn know if this was my inner cecil since im cosplaying as him going off or just going crazy....
whelp 
yeah just wondering if anyone has done that before 
weither for nightvale or what but i know when the oak door episode im going to watch im proubly going to be crying and yelling at the station once again....